A Rant, Some Will Like, Some Will Not

Truth, is, I rarely get into political, or really anything debatable, on my blog. I feel now is a time I must speak my opinion in more than 140 characters or less, so here I go....

Tomorrow has been promoted as support Chick-Fil-A day, as they have been bashed as NOT supporting same sex marriage. Now, I am not one to judge ANYONE's life choices, I consider myself a God fearing woman, but by NO means an "Upstanding Christian" role model. What I DO support is freedom of speech, & free enterprise. Chick-Fil-A has EVERY right to be in business & support whatever causes, they, as a company, see fit.
Also in the snowstorm of all this negative publicity there is so much GOOD that Chick-Fil-A supports & encourages that are being swept under the rug. I find it AWESOME that in this day and age of business that they stick to their beliefs so strongly as to still be closed on Sundays, & yes I have driven through the parking lot on a Sunday with the sad face from forgetfulness myself, several times. Yet, I still find it refreshing that they they honor that belief of rest on Sundays as a Company. Have you ever been to Italy during afternoon Siesta? I mean that is not a religious thing, but yet it is refreshing for someone in this day & age to honor rest, not the hustle bustle of the almighty dollar, or lira for that matter.
Also Chick-Fil-A supports WinShape Foundations & camps. This is not an act that should be negated & bashed as their Christian beliefs, or far right fundamental support. It does good for many youths & families who need that help & support. And as I recall from the Good Samaritan story from the bible, we are to help those in need regardless of difference of race, religion or other differences, including sexual preference!
Don't get me wrong, I live & base my life loosely on the Christian beliefs. I am FAR from perfect, & I also have NO interest in judging other's choices for themselves. No matter what lies on the other side of this life, or what your belief is, surely we can admit as humans we are flawed in MANY aspects, most of all judging what is good/bad/ok/not ok etc. No matter what you have as a higher power, that higher power will judge us all, not us!
As a free country, Chick-Fil-A has the right to support whatever causes or issues they wish, you as a paying customer have the right to buy their product or not. But in NO way can I justify City Governments denying ANY business in this economy, the right to conduct LEGAL business! I mean the community has the right to buy their product or not, but how can government deny them permits, etc & the right to conduct LEGAL business?
So you can choose whether or not you want a chicken sandwich tomorrow, but buying one is NOT saying you support Anti Gay Marriage causes. Buying products from Chick-Fil-A, in MY idiotic opinion is about supporting the right for businesses to believe whatever they want, as long as they treat ALL customers with dignity & respect.

No I am down off my soap box, let the bashing begin LOL

With Possiblities Come Risks

You know anytime you open yourself up in anyway you are taking a chance on HUGE possibilities, but also the risk of failure. This is just like some law of nature I am sure some scientist has coined a term for, like the action/ reaction mumbo jumbo. Whether it is creative writing, song writing, blogging, friends & family conversations, dancing...when you open up you have taken a risk that who you open up to, what you open about will be accepted, respected, debated, criticized, but most ultimately HEARD.

Everyone really just wants to be heard. 

Have their feelings, believes, opinions acknowledged. The voice we use to communicate these things is different for most of us, some write, some dance, some talk, some pray, some yell, some create visual art and the forms of expression can just go and on!
When you have opened up in whatever way you have chosen and things are not as accepted, respected, grand as you had hoped, staying positive can be a little tricky. If you are a returning to this blog it is NO secret this has been emotional week for me. If you know me at all, you also know I will make it to the weekend just fine and be back to my positive, whole hearted faith in Humanity & love of man self. Sometimes you just have to take that kick to the floor to the 9 count to get back up stronger than before.

And I had planned to have this post be ALL about keeping my chin up and trucking on. As I began to write this, the words flowed like butter. I have already told you I do not argue with the higher powers, I let them drive...so for some reason I have chosen THIS blog as my voice & THIS needed to be HEARD!

Honesty

Well, I have had quite a week, and it's only Wednesday. I have discovered 2 important people to me have not been being honest. I was mad about this, at first. After much thought I have decided to let it go. We all know you can't change people that do not want to change. I have also learned that when people are not honest with themselves, there is no way in hell they can be honest to others around them. Then webs of lies unravel & people get hurt.
I can't change people, but I can change & end unhealthy relationships. I can choose to only accept truth & honesty. I can choose to walk away from anything less, & I have.

SOOO Tired

My life consists of SO much stress & drama...anything added is...NOT invited! It is what it is!

Always an Up With a Down

Sometimes you ask the universe for an answer or sign, and sometimes you get it. Sometimes you get the answer or sign you hoped you would not. Well, no surprise, I got the latter today. After a long, LONG night & WAY too early morning I received, like a slap in the face, the answer to something I have been pondering for months now.  It has been tapping me on the shoulder for a few weeks, but evidently, you must slap me in the face for me to get a subtle hint (I know this is NO shocker to those who know me well)! This is not a bad thing, it was the answer I needed to make my move toward further goals! I was not quite so positive earlier today, but I have no interest in arguing with high powers...it usually does NOT work to my advantage when I do!

Next, I promise you the very next moment, I also got another surprise, a VERY welcome one. So within a matter of moments I had a HUGE low and very needed high. Neither are life changing, but both are changes on my way TO life changing, so I embrace the good & the bad. Most importantly, I have answers! I do better when the higher powers steer & I just ride along, this I have learned.

And my tip for the day...NEVER let anger get in the way of friendships, you get more blessings if you just DON'T do it!!

A New Chapter

Summer has arrived! The kids are home, the sun is out & things feel great! But, in all actuality they are not. Although the days are filled with happy memories & the giggles of little ones (ALL which I appreciate), there is still something missing for me. I have spent the last few weeks, months even (before school got out) trying to fill this void with anything that sounded remotely interesting or possible. But the truth is, I have yet to find the filler! Mostly, because I am unaware of what I am lacking in my life at this point and time. From the outside, all seems pretty great at the battcave, but inside something feels very empty. And worse, I often feel like I am grasping at straws to find the answer.
I am a persistent little chick, & will find what it is that is missing. I will not dwell on it, as I have plenty to keep me busy. This is kinda like my saying it ALOUD to the universe, not as a whisper behind my bedroom walls to a God (if you believe in him) who has WAY bigger problems to deal with, IMO. So soon an answer will come, not a distraction. I am sure of this!

The Story of Battboy and BattLady

September 10th, 12 years ago was the defining day for a change in my life I never planned, nor expected. I was 7 months pregnant and feeling great, glowing and wide. I am off for a typical stress test, and had no worries because I had been having a normal pregnancy. I went in for a stress test, was immediately admitted and had a baby 6 hours later, 12 weeks preterm. 2 lbs 11 oz.There were tubes and medical terms and a mind blowing amount of chaos. I have a very hard time even putting much of any of that time into words or cohesive thoughts. There were tons of decisions to be made QUICKLY, and I had a baby, but NO medical degree. It was overwhelming, humbling, scary, and I was terrified. My family and I tried to make the best decisions we could for a VERY tiny, but most precious little angel...Battboy.

He stayed in the NICU for almost 3 months and after MANY hurdles and setbacks and joyous breakthroughs, I brought him home December 23rd, in time for Christmas. Only to spend the Holiday trying to find pharmacies to get pediatric meds & special compounds before Santa sent all the workers home. Needless to say, within a week, we were back in the hospital for what would be the first of many hospital stays, procedures, and surgeries. Battboy is diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy and Failure to Thrive for his inability to eat, he is G-tube fed, and requires assistance for everything in his daily life. He is in a wheelchair and has a bad vocal cord so vocal communication is little, but he still loves to singsong a lot!

I RARELY focus on what he can't do, but rather build on what he CAN do. I want NOTHING but the best for all my kids, but in Battboy's case that means overpriced, but desperately needed special seating, communication devices, car seats, and in my wildest dreams, someday a van, where he can be taken places in his wheelchair without it breaking my back. I am a single mother so I do everything for him myself, other than when he is at school. We don't have nursing care, as insurance doesn't cover it for him. I have WONDERFUL parents who help me in EVERY way they can and I appreciate them more than words could EVER express!

I am trying to make a way for myself to take care of my family without turning to government aid or putting my parents in debt before they retire. For six years I have perfected my art of candle making and my infamous TennesseTarts. It is impossible for me to get a job outside the home, with all of Battboy's appointments and procedures, that are never ending. So in an effort to do something that works for us and allows me the time Battboy, and my other children require, I giving my candle business another try.

Battboy has MANY medical needs, but is generally in decent health for child in his condition, so we plan on him being around for a LONG time. I must plan for him and my family so that we can be the most productive members of society we can be. I am proud of my kids, my story and my products. I am also honored that you took the time to get a little history on my angel and why I do what I do.