Thursday, June 21, 2012

With Possiblities Come Risks

You know anytime you open yourself up in anyway you are taking a chance on HUGE possibilities, but also the risk of failure. This is just like some law of nature I am sure some scientist has coined a term for, like the action/ reaction mumbo jumbo. Whether it is creative writing, song writing, blogging, friends & family conversations, dancing...when you open up you have taken a risk that who you open up to, what you open about will be accepted, respected, debated, criticized, but most ultimately HEARD.

Everyone really just wants to be heard. 

Have their feelings, believes, opinions acknowledged. The voice we use to communicate these things is different for most of us, some write, some dance, some talk, some pray, some yell, some create visual art and the forms of expression can just go and on!
When you have opened up in whatever way you have chosen and things are not as accepted, respected, grand as you had hoped, staying positive can be a little tricky. If you are a returning to this blog it is NO secret this has been emotional week for me. If you know me at all, you also know I will make it to the weekend just fine and be back to my positive, whole hearted faith in Humanity & love of man self. Sometimes you just have to take that kick to the floor to the 9 count to get back up stronger than before.

And I had planned to have this post be ALL about keeping my chin up and trucking on. As I began to write this, the words flowed like butter. I have already told you I do not argue with the higher powers, I let them for some reason I have chosen THIS blog as my voice & THIS needed to be HEARD!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012


Well, I have had quite a week, and it's only Wednesday. I have discovered 2 important people to me have not been being honest. I was mad about this, at first. After much thought I have decided to let it go. We all know you can't change people that do not want to change. I have also learned that when people are not honest with themselves, there is no way in hell they can be honest to others around them. Then webs of lies unravel & people get hurt.
I can't change people, but I can change & end unhealthy relationships. I can choose to only accept truth & honesty. I can choose to walk away from anything less, & I have.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

SOOO Tired

My life consists of SO much stress & drama...anything added is...NOT invited! It is what it is!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Always an Up With a Down

Sometimes you ask the universe for an answer or sign, and sometimes you get it. Sometimes you get the answer or sign you hoped you would not. Well, no surprise, I got the latter today. After a long, LONG night & WAY too early morning I received, like a slap in the face, the answer to something I have been pondering for months now.  It has been tapping me on the shoulder for a few weeks, but evidently, you must slap me in the face for me to get a subtle hint (I know this is NO shocker to those who know me well)! This is not a bad thing, it was the answer I needed to make my move toward further goals! I was not quite so positive earlier today, but I have no interest in arguing with high usually does NOT work to my advantage when I do!
Next, I promise you the very next moment, I also got another surprise, a VERY welcome one. So within a matter of moments I had a HUGE low and very needed high. Neither are life changing, but both are changes on my way TO life changing, so I embrace the good & the bad. Most importantly, I have answers! I do better when the higher powers steer & I just ride along, this I have learned.
And my tip for the day...NEVER let anger get in the way of friendships, you get more blessings if you just DON'T do it!!

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

A New Chapter

Summer has arrived! The kids are home, the sun is out & things feel great! But, in all actuality they are not. Although the days are filled with happy memories & the giggles of little ones (ALL which I appreciate), there is still something missing for me. I have spent the last few weeks, months even (before school got out) trying to fill this void with anything that sounded remotely interesting or possible. But the truth is, I have yet to find the filler! Mostly, because I am unaware of what I am lacking in my life at this point and time. From the outside, all seems pretty great at the battcave, but inside something feels very empty. And worse, I often feel like I am grasping at straws to find the answer.
I am a persistent little chick, & will find what it is that is missing. I will not dwell on it, as I have plenty to keep me busy. This is kinda like my saying it ALOUD to the universe, not as a whisper behind my bedroom walls to a God (if you believe in him) who has WAY bigger problems to deal with, IMO. So soon an answer will come, not a distraction. I am sure of this!